Thursday, August 2, 2007

179/365 The Needle and the Damage Done

I caught you knockin’
at my cellar door
I love you, baby,
can I have some more?

I can stop anytime I want.

Blogging, that is. I figure it’s an obsession, not an addiction.

My problem is—well, one of my problems—this obsessiveness I have about needing to finish what I start. So apparently, if I make a slash mark and follow it by 365, I expect myself to fill up the numbers on the front end.

But I could quit. Couldn’t I?

I mean look at what’s happened. All these 365ers come over to this project, and some have completely disappeared, and some may have.

I don’t intend to quit blogging. It’s just that this particular daily aspect of it is wearing me down, and others have disappeared, which is very not motivating. I would go back to Alphabird, the blog I miss. She’d forgive me this other obsession. Wouldn’t she?

Now I find a new blog link on this project by a blogger whose 365 work I’ve been totally enjoying. Just when I was going to quit . . a hesitation.

I think in preparation for possibly quitting, I will honor the Fallen and Possibly Fallen with songs dedicated to them. (Stay tuned.)

And then we’ll see.

I’d say 200 posts is a worthy goal, but again, the very number is a rather arbitrary obsessiveness that comes from living in a decimal society.

Here’s Neil Young.


Sewa Yoleme said...

Will your fevered brain allow you to make 365 posts, but spread out over (say) two years instead of one?

You could also change the number after the slash, and pretend it was always thus.

I recently dropped out of a group I founded. Just quit, because it was no longer fulfilling for me. One of the most empowering things I've ever done.

Helen said...

Not that I want you to quit blogging, but since you'll still be around via Alphabird, I suggest changing the number before the slash. Make tomorrow's entry 365/365. Nobody's really keeping count anyways, except that infernal internal counter.

pk said...

I shouldn't worry, unless the puritan work ethic has you in thrall - I think the music idea is easier to sustain if you are a music tragic and I had noticed that you were really talking about yr life with a musical motif - which is cool, but you'll do that anyway - whereas for some of us it's the other way round

Indigo Bunting said...

Thanks for the comments. All seriously helpful. I'll try to get through my nods to the fallen, then see...

I like the 365/365 idea.

Bridgett said...

I'm still here...and I know this summer has been a bitch for me time-wise, but hypergraphia don't cure itself...I'll read whatever you put up.